Here i am in the lab doing nothing..Lols..Elly and Widayu busy doing INMM..See lah, why dont want to save in thumbdrive so when got time in school can do..Stubborn right? CMSK lesson is only for half an hour so its pretty boring..
Sigh sigh..After that we went to the lab and yar, im practically doing nothing except go to shockwave.com to play games but that too is very boring so i decided to walk around and see elly's and widayu's work..hahas..very hardworking unlike me,Heh!
But but..got someone to accompany me,heex..He sat beside me but..he use his laptop to play games while im there watching it..hahax..but he still talk to me..soo sweet..half an hour later he left cuz he want to go eat lunch with his friends..
Ok..i dont know what to blog anymore..lols? *knock my head against the wall*
Im just so excited to see him again after 2 wks + the term test week so makes that 3 wks..So i miss him..hahax..
Then i find that he is more nicer to me..The way he talk very polite and of course it cannot make me forget about him already..so yar..lols...*im going mad* I need the IMH..
I didnt realise i have come this far that i open up my heart to u..U realise it but im still unaware of my feelings for u..How big is it or how small is it, im not sure..
I just know that i like u and i fall for u ever since the way u look and laugh with me..I thought it was nothing but i could not hide it any longer..I have no control of my feelings anymore and the more i try to avoid u the more i will definely miss u..
I miss u already..Kept thinking about u today but actually i was thinking if i should avoid u when the time comes and that within these few weeks, will i be able to forget about u.That, im not sure either.I cant seem to make it right anymore when it concerns u..hahx..im still able to laugh..i guess i do like u a lot huh..u say u will make me notice u if i avoid u, but will it ever be possible between us?After what u told me, i kept thinking and wondered bout it..It will be so perfect but again, maybe ure not up for it..
Why i like u? i think compared to others, i feel that there is a chemistry between us..Do u feel it too? i dont know but its like the way u responds to me seems like it but when asked, u felt unsure about it.So which is the truth?Im confused myself..Nevertheless it makes me wana avoid u more..*Sigh..What shall i do to control my evolving emotions? I cant help thinking about u but what? what? what?
I think it will be enough time for me to take and go..Cuz ive experience it a lot of times and so this shall not be a problem..Ure scared im hurt if i do that but what do u wana do? im scared to ask u that..i dont have the rights, i dont want u to think im so into u that i could go insane.Im not like that..Im just like anybody else..Having these hard times..
Its all up to u..Perhaps i have to move on isnt it? let go of this feelings........as i may not know what will happen..
Today, only went to school for 1 hour.Very freakingly waste my time.Can stay at home to study but its ok.Got to watch more of other grp's videos.Very fun.Lols...My stress level keeps rising due to the term test which is around the corner..What the?! Its only next week.. No time to relax and day dream anymore.. Better study harder.. Seems like this sem is a bit tough so less sleep and work more and of course less surfing..Couldnt help it..
Anyway, im pretty sad though cause i dont want to go to the venue for each term test alone...They all very bad..Want me to be independent..*PuncH* *KicK* the admin..=.= Dont blame me..You all make me do this so you have to take the blame wokay? =)
Narisya!! Lols..She is my life saver, my reminder, my "release all my stress and complaints"..Yar..hehex..I like to rant and blabber all nonsense stuff with her..Cuz she responds to it..if not ill go crazy doing it all alone..Sigh* Sigh*DotS...Lols..
Cant wait for term test to be over but still wants to achieve gd marks..Must pass all..Then next thursday, want to go out will all my Darlz..Go eat and celebrate because during term break also have to go back school to discuss project..Sianzz..
Better get back to my study-ING..if not will end up sleeping late and will be very tired..Miss U Green Chan!!