This is the REAL Me!-;

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Im back with another post...Wah!! I feel soo free when there are other things for me to do..Anyway, im back again with a lot of pictures to post..So here they are..and some pics were taken while im bored..Hahax..Dont blame me if im all lame but its fun..hahax...thats what i think at least since i got nothing better to do and to keep myself awake...

This pic was taken this morning before i left home to school ..Im VAIN anyway..I look pretty good so why not take a snapshot?? lols..I look eerie..

That is me and Narisya..I wanted to take lots of pics so i decided to take our picture together and this is outside LT waiting for DBSY lecture...Heehex....

This is during Swen Lecture and we are sooooooo super bored..Can imagine the boredom there..So narisya is striking a pose here..Aka Makino..*Whispers* (She surfs and blog during the lecture U know..How could she right, didnt pay attention.. :x Hahax.. In a boring lecture with a boring lecturer and with students feeling bored..Its all the teacher's fault..*Points to him below* Bleahz!!

Here is the scary einstein who is really slow in everyting..He dont know how to manage his time well and like to drag unnecessary stuff..He even cannot pronounce ppl's name properly or in a normal pace..Must pronounce like "Tsuu- Kaa- Saa"..Lols...Annoying lah actually..By the way, Ure caught on camera..So dont try anything funny here einstein..

This is the hardworking people who listen so attentively to the boring lecturer..Just look at them..Gosh* How can they give their concentration..*So much focus* Admire....

Lan hui started to get bored already..Err...she's always bored in all lectures..Lols..

Look at my hand..Dont try anything funny here before this five fingers come flying on your cheek =_=

This corner is the Multimedia corner..Die die must use laptop..And oh so not paying attention here..Look at them who are busy staring at their beautiful laptop screen..I can read their minds..They were saying *Its better to stare at my laptop.Can do better and more useful things than staring at your so not handsome face*..Its not me..Its them.. =)

This was taken on Monday on Jane's new handphone..When i got mine , i took her pic..So now i guess its her turn huh..*nods* -_- Do i Look sweet here?

This is quite old..I think about a month ago..When i had my new handphone and i was still trying to take pics with it..So this is my best friend,Hui Yin..We are in the bus..Hahax..*Moving Beauties* ;-) Speaking of it, i guess that my handphone is already a month old..Woah!! Thats quite fast isnt it..It feels as though i just bought it a week ago..Hahax..

Me and Jane..Yeapx..Trying my new handphone..

7:11:00 PM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Was in a very bad mood today..Something happened and i could never forgive or forget about it..It got stucked to my mind now and im feeling very uncomfortable and i could not relax myself..

Sigh**Its not my fault anyway and U made it worse..Call yourself a lecturer but U dont even know how to be sensitive towards other people feelings..Ure the worse person i ever met and the worse role model..Wait! In the first place I dont even think U can be one..Ure not capable of being one anyway.... Damn, this is infuriating..! I shall prove it that i can make it just like U said although i hated it soo much..!!

11:06:00 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Its getting late and im supposed to be in bed already but lately, ive been lacking sleep due to all the projects that are supposed to be done..As the days go by, i feel really tired of everything but i could npot complain as this is the path that i have chosen.So here i am and i want to give my all so that when i look back upon myself, i can feel that there is something about me to be proud of..

Anyways, i think im done with INMM becasue i dont know what to add and what to do anymore..Have insertes all sound clips and edited a lot of times..Did this and done that, adding words here and there, but its still not enough..There must be something i left behind but im not sure what it was.Perhaps i should take it slow and maybe stop thinking about it..I could not sleep peacefully these days too..I slept very late yet woke up early..Am i tired? of course but im not sure myself why im like that..

So just now, i went to somebody's blog and you're there to read and navigate someone's blog right? and not to stare at it thinking and looking at how beautiful or abstract the skin is..So i read *her* blog and it was a sudden feeling that striked me emotionally.Well i am an emotional person (*laughs*) but there she is, with all the pics she posted and the entries she keyed in makes me sad and i sympathise her a lot..Not that she wants to or knew about it but its just so sad..I wont blog about her that much because i think its bad to gossip about other people..So lets just say she is my secondary school friend, been in the same class for four years *ouch* but all i know during our sec 4 yrs, we are a bit close..Maybe because she keeps asking me Science qns (was a Sci freak that time,ehem(LOL)) and i always advice her to study hard for her future and so after O levels, most of us lost contact and i was really eager to know about her and her blog tell all the tales of her..Where does her future lie actually? By working and stop thinking what is going to happen in the future? That nothing matters anymore as long as you're happy? It doesnt have to be that way isnt it..This is why i felt so bad.. i dont know to who but that feeling is circling around me.. She is a very nice peson and i just want what is best to all my friends, because i care.....Didnt talk to her online as i think its not necessary anymore..Been 2 long yrs since we both chatted..Whats the point anyway..Only if i hold the key to everything that controls the earth, i will want simply the best for all my dear ones..DOesnt matter who as long as i know you and to show that i really care..Back then i already knew she wasnt keen on her studies, but she's intelligent..For now, everything has gone wasted..all i could do is to pray that she will be fine, and so does everyone..

Then i upload few old pics on friendster..Let me tell yar, friendster have died on me..Im not interested about it anymore, only at times when i think that i got the mood to look at it, then i will. No particular reasons actually...

Also yesterday, i chatted with my old fren from sec school,he's a guy,lol..Its been quite some time i keep in touch with my other sec school frens and i miss those times a lot although i always got teased by all the guys..heh! So we chatted about one stuff i think? and we share a common interest and that is on Animes..Hahax..he's just like me and he also said that he's more to the dramas side,like me but i think i kinda love both of them..Okay, i love everything..Just everything that is pleasant to watch but more to the Jap side, well yar..hmm..Yar..lols..

Its 12 am and its already Monday..Time does pass by fast and soon without realising i will reach the stage of going a level up in poly life..and then graduate..everything happens in a quick time..Gawd, there is so much things to do and yet soo little time was given..I hate Mondays!! Monday blues..Its been like that since secondary? hahax..always hate mondays not because its the starting day of the week but because of the events that is always going to happen every Monday..Hate it!! Will only go home at 7pm and then ill be completely tired and the next day my lesson starts at 8..So uncool..and frustrating..Although i could see *hmm-mm* but still, it doesnt make my day..After all, i strongly think that i can forget bout having these feelings for him..Just move on,its not that bad..

Starting tomorrow, there will be more work to do..Projects projects projects are the only current things i can think of ..Even when sleeping and doing leisure stuffys...Urghhh..i dont think there is even a spare time for me to think about leisure..hahax..life is really busy huh..

Its 12.06 and im not sure what i should do..i cant sleep and i dont want to be on my lappy dear anymore but that will leave me with boredom..Its hard to kill me boredom..Not eveyrone can help me with it..SIgh...i want a happy ending in life...

Never mind..SInce im really bored and i just realised that this is my longest entries compared to the previous, just put it here what i felt was OK to read..Its lame, i know** -_-''

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1) Been downloading more animes to be watched during Sem break

2) Spend a lot of time on computer/ lappy because of stupid projects

3) Thinking of watching Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest

4) Johnny Depp is cute while Orlando Bloom is forever mine

5)Cant understand what Keira Knightley was saying because i hate British accents

6)My maid is going back home in a week's time

7) Going to do more household chores because i cant depend everything on Mum

8) Have to cook,its not a bad thing.Done that always

9) I think i can cook and bake well *Smiles*

10) Very particular about hygiene stuff and hygienic places

11) Still not sleepy

12) Hates UCulture CDS, everthing is not right from the beginning when i step into the class

13) Hates oily food, dont eat Malay Kueh (my parents know i hate them, Sorry lah)

14) My family (especially Mum) is very concern about the food we eat

15) She cooks less salt, less oil, less sugar, more veg dish

16) Taking good care of myself, dont want to fall sick

17) Still not sleepy

18) Favourite colour blue

19) Today is cold as it rained the whole day

20) Started watching a new KDrama "A love to Kill" (Pretty Good)

21) Stayed with noisy, unconsiderate, brainless neighbours

22) Not going to cut my long nails (They're pretty u know)

23) Listening to K(Kei) songs ( He's korean but he sings Jap songs,all sentimental)

24) Everyone is sleeping soundly

25) Shoot, im not sleepy

26) Save the Last Dance for me (Kdrama) is really good except that the actor is not HOT

27) Had my favourite dish, Rendang for dinner

28) I want to keep smilling even when im hurt

29) Live life to the fullest

30) I love my family

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*[Look at me and U wont ever Regret]*_..

11:42:00 PM

Friday, July 07, 2006

Wanted to upload this last 2 months but yar lol..hahax..was busy with normal stuff u know and yar i was kind of lazy lah...so lol...
Anyways, that day was fun because Narisya showed me around Marina Square,havent been there cuz i was not allowed to go there only if im with parents,hahax..although im old but this is my life..Its not as though im tired or got angry about it but im just grateful to how i was brought up..Okay,im off topic..lol..
So after that, we went to Swensens and she treated me with with Birthday Ice Cream(above)...She's soo nice nice!!! Thanx yar!! Hahax, i sound so pathetic and outdated..
Then we went to Esplanade as i have never been there either..The scenery is just 'Wow'..Really beautiful...

Then we were getting bored actually because we are lingering around,windows shopping basically due to i dont have enough money to buy expensive stuff..U have to be under budget at times too..Im a shopping freak, soooo i must have an enourmous pocket in the future to satisfy my hunger for shopping or ill DIE!!! Lolx.....

*Gasps*...

Nah is sooo boring..She is talking so super slow explaining STMD term test and so i got no choice but to continue blogging before i fell asleep since im lacking sleep nowadays..Just shut up and move on lah....Lol...im also doing like three things at the moments..*"Paying attention to Nah", writing down answers, blogging and smsing Narisya..Lols...i feel so smart..Seriously am i smart? OR am i being boastful about bragging this kind of stuffies? hahax...should be proud of myself no matter who i am..After all, i have to live in this world for GOD knows how long its going to be..So gotta enjoy it even if it means heartbreaking moments, come across STUPID people..Yar...............thats life you know..Like someone said (heex!!!) im an emotional love kind of person so i ALWAYS expect or WANT a happy ending in life..Like Cinderella or Beauty and the Beast..My life have to be sweet and pure in order to survive.....*Is somebody already puking?* U know who u are...lols..

Nah is gone and everyone is so hyped up now and once again the lab is noisy..Bla bla bla...I dont know what to blog anymore..Its kind of infuriating if all i ever blog is on him right..Must blog more about other things..Of course there are more events in my life but i think its tooo personal to type it here..So all i do is to crap here lah..I think better stop..Nothing already..Getting nonsense..No content already..So stop reading, dont waste your time to read till the end..I said stop right!!! Lols...

11:21:00 AM

Monday, July 03, 2006

Oh GAWD!! I guess im soo full of emotions..Lols =X Well, well, well, i really miss him but the thing is it hurts if i continue talking to him and acted like before..There is no point to be sooo "manja" with him if in the end i did not gain anything..Only pain!! Arghh..!

Hahax..so randomly i start talking about it..Anyway, in INMM Lab class now..Poor Mr Woobs..He is explaining and not all of us are paying attention to him (including me) -_-..heex.. but im doing my project..See....So yar..Today got a hug from my darling because i wanted her hug and comfort soo much and she gave me good advice!! Thank U Green Chan..Dont worry..I wont talk to him because i want him to do some soul searching and if he still talks to me, then....erm..be quiet? I want to see how he feels if i keep acting that way then suddenly, he cannot control so he needs to talk to me so badly because he miss me..HooHoo..=3 Okay, im talking stuff that will never happen.So what.Its not as if he care or he will miss me right? I can only wish that he will but after hearing it, nah..I lose all my hopes on him..Maybe someday, maybe, just maybe he will realise it but now, i can only suffer silently..*Tsk Tsk*

**Wish_.*

I gave all my hopes and dreams to U

Because I thought we can share them together

When i heard the BAD news, not only my dreams

and hopes were shattered, i WAS too

I could not find light within U

Only darkness surround me

Who can save me from this darkness

As i thought only U could

I just hope U find YOUR TRUE feelings soon

But if it is not meant for me

Let me drift away

That can only give happiness not only to ME

But to U too

However, i still pin my hopes on U because i want to be with U

Badly

Im Vulnerable, my shelter COULD only be U

Im Gullible, my saver Could only be U

Im Lost, my guide COULD only be U

Please THINK and Be My Valentine

4:23:00 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

I dont have the mood to do anything today after what happened yesterday.I felt really terrible but one thing for sure that i know is i did not blame myself as i did not know know the real thing that is happening and i wasnt told. But im still doing my work.I guess its better to continue doing even though i tend to drift away at times.Thats me.I cant sit still without doing anything.Haix...

I guess it was meant to be this way.Everything.I felt sooo pathetic and really useless. I dont know why but i kept thinking about it because its not the first time but "first time" as in experiencing something soo sweet and cared for but it the end, it wasnt what i thought it to be. So all this while i was kind of in my own world.Guessing whether its really true or am i dreaming about it. Up till now, after i woke up, i could not forget the whole thing.I kept telling myself it was all a dream or simply put it wished it was a dream but after all its not.It was slammed to my face and the aftermath i received, i just could not handle it.

My emotions are really fragile but it seems as though it was not noticed and so my emotions were played around as though i was a toy, i did not exist. In the first place, just tell me what needs to be done so i will not fall deeper but nothing! NOTHING! HONTOU BETSUNI!!

Just felt like crying but why must i waste my tears on this kind of stuff. I mean its considered nothing right, especially to my mum because she doesnt like me to waste my time on BGR and wants me to put my concerntration on other areas that are more important, like education, but i could not control it. I just could not anymore. I have a lot to worry about. How can i not think about it? Im not a toy and i got feelings. Real feelings.

This looks like the end of the road to me.I cant do anything anymore except to feel sad and sulk..

12:23:00 PM