Saturday, June 03, 2006
I didnt realise i have come this far that i open up my heart to u..U realise it but im still unaware of my feelings for u..How big is it or how small is it, im not sure..
I just know that i like u and i fall for u ever since the way u look and laugh with me..I thought it was nothing but i could not hide it any longer..I have no control of my feelings anymore and the more i try to avoid u the more i will definely miss u..
I miss u already..Kept thinking about u today but actually i was thinking if i should avoid u when the time comes and that within these few weeks, will i be able to forget about u.That, im not sure either.I cant seem to make it right anymore when it concerns u..hahx..im still able to laugh..i guess i do like u a lot huh..u say u will make me notice u if i avoid u, but will it ever be possible between us?After what u told me, i kept thinking and wondered bout it..It will be so perfect but again, maybe ure not up for it..
Why i like u? i think compared to others, i feel that there is a chemistry between us..Do u feel it too? i dont know but its like the way u responds to me seems like it but when asked, u felt unsure about it.So which is the truth?Im confused myself..Nevertheless it makes me wana avoid u more..*Sigh..What shall i do to control my evolving emotions? I cant help thinking about u but what? what? what?
I think it will be enough time for me to take and go..Cuz ive experience it a lot of times and so this shall not be a problem..Ure scared im hurt if i do that but what do u wana do? im scared to ask u that..i dont have the rights, i dont want u to think im so into u that i could go insane.Im not like that..Im just like anybody else..Having these hard times..
Its all up to u..Perhaps i have to move on isnt it? let go of this feelings........as i may not know what will happen..
