I love the Rain and Sun...

2008-09-30T09:03:00.002+08:00

It's been what, 5 months I didnt update this blog. Cause I could'nt be bothered with it? Haha.. Just dont' feel like typing my story to let other people know. And I'm pretty sure no one will come back to read it. Oh well. Haha. But it's ok. I think I will start blogging crappy stuffs. All my rants and runts. Bluek!

Tomorrow is Hari Raya. Ramadhan has finally come to an end and we're celebrating it big tomorrow. However, this year, I highly doubt I'll get a lot of green packets since I'm working and so the relatives will only give it to those younger ones who are still schooling. Hmm.. I wonder will I get from my parents? Haha.. Just a few days ago asked my mum about it but she ain't telling me anything. Scromoks! Lol.. But eventually, I think I will. After all, I'm 10000x precious to them. *Ehem* 8D

2007-12-19T10:38:00.000+08:00

As much as I want to graduate, I don't really want school to end. Let's just say I'm not ready for the industry even though I want money. Wuah! That rhymes. Haha!
I want to be a Tai Tai.....badly...!

2007-11-18T22:19:00.001+08:00

Spent a lot today.. ><

Although it was mum's treat (erm...it has always been hers, LOL!) but I think today was a bit too much. Wanted to change my phone to Sony k850i but I decided to take the k800i instead since I wanted that phone badly when it came out. Surprisingly, it was not available anymore. That fast? Guess it was an old model already. Anyways, settled on k810i instead. Still pweety, all blue but I'm having a hard time adapting to the keypad. Hopefully I can master it, haha...! Then again, that cost her 300+ dollars.

Not to mention, bought 4 tops at one go. 2 from Dorothy Perkins, the other 2 from Baleno. EEEKK! No more spending. No more. I think? Heheh! ^^

Better get back to my school work. Buh!

2007-11-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

More Project Proposals and Report Writings.
Urghh! Boring!....~

2007-10-10T09:37:00.000+08:00

I'm The Petty Princess ~

I've become grumpier

I can't shut up

I can't stop cursing

I can't stop being an emo

I've become worse than ever

One thing for sure, this is the Real Me

I didn't change.Not at all

This is just..Me

(And Im still a Princess,definitely)

So who hates me already? Buh!

2007-10-08T11:56:00.001+08:00

I miss my Garfield very much!

2007-10-04T11:28:00.000+08:00

I'm a BlurQueen.

A horrible one.

Toots.

Can't wait for tomorrow.

2007-10-03T11:09:00.000+08:00

I'm finally free from THAT school's clutches.

Took photographs with my favourite kids but I shall not post them today.

Or for now.

Reason Being : IM LAZY

Buh.

2007-09-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

It narrowed down to 4 days~

4 more days to what? To the end of my "Extended SIP" of course. Been waiting enduringly for this day to come. I thought I was really nuts back then when I chose to extend my SIP period till this Friday with the school but after a thorough check - up, I am still normal. Still a Healthy Child thinking Healthy stuff.LOL!

As much as I want to get out of work politics, pressure and everything else, Ill definitely miss all the treasures I have picked up. *cries* The path I walk to the General Office, along the way greeting "Good Morning" to security guard uncle, the ~~cleaners~~ aunties and the admin family in the Office.

Within these few months there, I became strongly attached NOT to the school but the people. *DUH* Especially the kids. My P1 Kids. Relatively since I took them for TouchTyping Training and they're my closest ~~rascals~~ students compared to other levels when I took down for relieve(my P2, P4-P6). Everytime I see my "kids" during P1 recess, all of them will get so hyper active that they will shout my name, run to me, hugging and pulling me to play "catching" with them. Even when recess is over, they do not want to let go of my hands. How can I bear to leave them behind? *Boo Hoo Hoo* I admit they are very noisy and mischievous during my lessons and getting them to settle down really drains my energy. However, behind these ~~devilish~~ behaviours, they are still my cuddly little students,hahaha!

After all, I do enjoy being in the school. I just hope I have the time to come down to visit them. Buh.

2007-09-23T17:04:00.000+08:00

And there you were... watching over me ....

Nothing in this world is important

Than having you by my side....

So now,Im thanking You

For everything You have given me...

2007-09-01T15:44:00.001+08:00

Going to update today's post with pictures.Lots of them!

(Cause I just love posing during National Day Celebrations)

(He's proud to be a scout! *Bluek*)

(He's bending down cause Im just too short for him,heh~)

(Our Supervisor)

(Mr Poh and Me )

(My student on my right who keeps hugging me,Lol?)

(Kenneth, Teacher's Aide)

(Teachers' Day Dinner at Copthorne King's Hotel)

(With Dominic at Teachers' Day Dinner)

(PeiXiu and Me)

(Posing at the school's garden)

(From left: Donald, Zakiyah, PeiXiu and Me)

(Rizal, the new yet "joker" Technical Assistance[TA])

(Jolene, she doesnt look like a teacher right?)

(Mdm Asrinah, Vice Principal)

(Uncle Selamat, one of the staff there)

(Fatimah, the sweet teacher)

(Norsena, very funky malay teacher)

(Yamuna and Me)

2007-08-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

Had an outing with dear Farah today.. Went to Marina Square to get her Birthday Gift. Farah, you're turning 21! LOLZ!! Then bought another small bag from Wallet Shop. Another Myuk Brand. Haha..I just realised that I got a Myuk Shoulder Bad, Myuk Hp Pouch and lastly this Myuk small pouch.. Couldnt resist the cutest and nicest things when my eyes set on them! =)

Anyways, almost all the restaurants we went for lunch made us angry. First we went to Secret Recipe. It was real empty except for these 2 girls. So we dont really took into consideration about it. After we're seated and was ready to order, a lot of the choices that we wanted werent available.. So we apologise and walked off. No wonder its empty.

Secondly, was Seoul Garden. Was excited over it because we promise each other to eat as much as we can and grow fat. So, it wasnt really full house but we got another negative response from the staff. She told us that it was full and that we were to write down our names on the Waiting List. Isnt it like weirddd??

Finally we decided to settle on Pizza Hut.. Today ... was bad.. Never experienced it before.. Like LOL?

Tomorrow is another day. Back to work.Back to hell. Back to headache. Back to all sorts of nonsense!

2007-08-10T13:44:00.001+08:00

What should I do with myself?

2007-08-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

You turn my life around,

You make me sway to your smiles,

You light up the darkness,

You gave me your shoulder to lean on,

You lend me your courage when I was down,

You gave me whatever I dont have,

Without you, where can I go?

With you, we walk this path..

Hmm.......LOL? Im not really reciting a poem or a quote to indicate that Im up to something.. Haha.. What the hell?!

I will stay cool with Narisya (yeah...sisters.... =) ) and let things happen slowly. Do not want to rush anything or I might regret again which I never want it to. But, ...before me... probably happiness is waiting for me at the other end. Waiting for me to strive harder in order to reach that happiness.... LOL? Im talking crap....Again!! Mind me People!!

2007-07-22T19:23:00.000+08:00

Im down with fever and a bad flu. My sorethroat is bad, keep coughing and a very bad runny nose as well. How am I suppose to survive a day at work tomorrow? Cant take MC because I have classes to train. Since the school now is short of manpower so I have no choice.. Huhuhu~ I want my Mummy!!! '' _ "

Anyways, I think its going to be an advantage though because they are P4 students and they are very very noisy. So since Im already sick and if they do not want to listen to me, my temperature will definitely increase and I shall scream at the top of my lungs.

Forgot to mention about what happened last week. Had to relieve a P2 class for 1 period only. It wasnt bad right. Brought their class to the library but it seems that they could not understand the definition of being quiet in a library. They ran, jumped, giggled loudly and stomped their feet around. Before, although I did raise my voice to all the classes I have to teach/relieve but no one usually listen to me. Instead, I was being bullied by them. Sadded. Somehow, last week, I got really angry at this P2 class that I just blew my top off at them. The ambience in the library went still and most of them suddenly kept quiet. Only a few of them were still playing. I grabbed their hands and brought the others back to their class. Surprisingly, the class knows how to keep their tone down and for those noisy ones, I punished them by ordering them to stand outside. Heh~ It works. Hahaaa...! They're little devils and monsters who constantly give me headaches.

2007-07-14T17:32:00.001+08:00

New guy to drool about?? ^^

Today...finally...got to watch Transformers! Haha... Went out early in the morning with my parents because they wanted to watch it too. This movie is damn good so must not miss it right? And I have been whining about it ever since the movie first screened.

Shia...The leading cast of Transformers. Just like the guy next door who first appeared in kids' series has now become a big movie star. A well grown up lad. Maybe he can be the next Wentworth Miller..How about that? Heehee... ^^

2007-07-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

Its finally here~~~~

*SCREAMS*

Its finallllyyyy here......!!! The original Japanese version for Hanazakarino Kimitachi e.. Can't wait to watch my favourite female lead and 2 of the hottest male stars in Japan.. Haha!! And Im so happy that they casted Shirotaa Yuu kun as their classmate..

*GIGGLES* Sure makes my daysss... =)

2007-07-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

A random post I know ::

Im very very tired right now but I was too bored so I thought I would do this for the sake of expressing how lame I am, haha!

Facts about myself::

1) I like chillies. I can consume all sorts of chillies, even cili padi, but now, I found out or rather I cant seem to take chillies anymore. Only a little will do but not a lot. Same goes to those normal chillies or sambals as they called it. Something's wrong with me? o_O LOL!!! Even my mum thinks so too.. ^^
2) I used not to mind the crowds but now I prefer to mingle in areas less crowded. Just hated the noise
3)Can never leave the house without spraying myself perfume/deodorant ( A few times happen though when Im in a rush and so I forgotten.. Im telling you, I can go crazy thinking Me without Perfume)
5) Hate Vegetables a lot but now I eating them as though these greens dont taste anything =)
5) Dont mind wearing heels anymore since everyday I wore heels to work. Haha.. And Im like always running here and there EVERYTIME. I wonder how many umpteen times I almost trip...
6) Falls for nice guys easily.. That is silly and consider me a fool please?!

Apparently, I shall not brag / expose myself too much, hahaa.. Till then..

2007-07-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

Finally I got to update this blog, hahaha... Was getting lazy by the days actually and I felt there isn't anything for me to update so I decided to leave it alone for awhile up till today.

Tomorrow will be a school holiday since its Youth Day. The teachers obviously get a day off too and last week, my friend and me jokingly asked our principal if we could get a day off. We thought she will not allow it but she "pitied" us because we are the lowest - paid staff there so she granted the permission to us.

This week is going to be another hectic week, preparing for P1 registration and also the teachers who LOVE to do last minute work. Can you believe that they are indeed very bad at time management? And they even point fingers at us interns if we could not finish their work because they thought we're shaking legs all the time in the office. They just do not possess enough qualitites of being an educator and should therefore return to basics!! I think we deserve to take their places..... always makes use of us just because we're posted there to help them.. Really!! Being involved in industry will never makes us feel better, but worse. Politics with colleagues, overstrain ourselves.... Tsk tsk.. Nothing really good comes around.. I just want all of this to be over and to get back our student life although being in TP do sucks a lot.... ^^

2007-05-28T20:24:00.000+08:00

"A surprise is a really surprise"

I seriously thought last Friday, May (my in charge) and my partner PeiXiu is going to sabo me but they didn't. Else, I will be so embarrassed. But today, although not much to be done since the school is scarily quiet but clearing the class list is at the top of my list.

Hence, I was busy moving about the school and my partner as well as my Vice Principal disappeared, telling me they have work to do. Being the innocent girl, I believed. They were away quite long and when they do come back, PeiXiu and May went missing again. I was pretty upset cause I was left alone but nevertheless, I made friends with these few bunches of P6 girls who came back to school to design the toilet. Yes, the toilet and we are in charge of them. (The staff there really got nothing else to do)

Then, this time I was gone to make my way to a class to get this file. When I came back, I saw May and PeiXiu were about to walk in the vp's office but they didn't call me so I just sat back at my place. Soon, they echoed my name. To my suprise, May was holding a cake and the staff at the office sang the "Birthday Song" Im so touched.

The Cover Page. Cute hah~

The content. A lot of well wishers. The long one on the left is from Supervisor and the big handwriting on the right is from VP.

The Back Page

The "Birthday Girls". On my left is Hazel. An intern too waiting for her enrollment to NIE.

Yummy "Chocolatey" Banana Cake!

I was unaware this moment was shot. Tsk~

The General Office Family. :2 are missing though and the Principal:
There's me holding the cake.

I know that guy standing behind is being an extra .. ^^ Oh wells but he fits in well

The four intellectuals who make work possible. Heh~

Just us who like to take pictures

2007-05-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today was an average day for me. Already planned to dine out at my fav Swens but for now, things got very complicated. So I decided to stay at home and cheer up the family. It's better that way too rather than I went out and enjoy with my friends.

After waking up in the wee hours of the morning, started to do all the normal housework. Later, I switched on my hp and all my birthday wishes came flooding my inbox. Then I kinda got a shock! The first msg came... well... hmm.. from a guy. Haha.. Yes a guy I befriended in school. A malay guy and NOT A MAT! It wasn't me who talked to him at first cause I dont talk to strangers, especially guys but he's being friendly and so I thought its okay. Since everywhere around me is surrounded by people who only likes to talk in You-Know-What-Language. Everytime I will feel bored and left out but this time, I think Im not anymore. At least I feel there is still a survivor with me in that school. Although he's seated in the staff room (forgot to mention that he is a teacher, ^_^") but I often see him in the office. Okay, I guess enough of talking about someone Im not really close too yar? Haha...

The rest of the day I spent it by watching tv, listening to music to release my tension. It keeps building up inside of me since tomorrow is a very important day for me and tuesday, the results. I keep praying that everything, yes, everything will go on smoothly.

2007-05-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

They really want me to be a teacher o_O""

Today was my very very first lesson where I conducted it myself. Usually I only does relieve and help around but today... stand in front and teach! Haha.. I was very nervous and its so obvious everyone notice (Im not sure about the students though) but May (My in charge) told me I was. Also, my voice was soft.. Really? I thought I was loud enough but the kids were like "huh huh". They could not hear me. I need a mic! Lol.. But everything went well and A-okay. Was proud of myself. At least whatever that Im currently doing, I can manage well. At the same time of course all of us learn new things and Im able to comprehend it quickly too. *Ahem* Oh wells, haha... Let's hope I can still survive and am still in one piece after all of this is over~

(The decision is just killing me. Coming Monday, crucial decision.Hope everything goes well * Prayers*)

2007-05-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

Somehow things just don't go the way I wanted. A lot of things have been happening lately and not only that, it dampened my spirits to go on. Not another issue from the school Im working in but just personal problems.

I actually thought I want to blog about it but Im quite conservative though when it touches my personal problem. Im just confused and I feel unsure and unsecured to who I should turn to. Too many things that I want to pour my heart out and too many problems for me to share. All that I am able to do now is to pray for the best of it and hopefully everything goes well like I have always wish for. Hope my dear friends can help me in this too ......... To pray for me and to lift my spirits up and be the cheerful person I am ....

2007-05-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

Where's the update I had promised last week? >< Basically, by the time I reached home from work (although I knock off at the usual office time at 5.30), I was already drained out. But still, that is the problem. It's not that Im complaining but sometimes I find it that unfair!

Recently, my 2 colleagues always ask me to hang out with them for a while in CompassPoint but I couldnt because I need to rush home and start preparing dinner. Then, there goes washing the laundry and drying them, iron my clothes to be worn the next day or specifically my tudung and god knows what else I have to do. So, where's my life? Haha... Lost it long ago.. I know Im complaining but I tried so hard not to. Weekends? Both Sats and Sun burns too.

Now Sat is definitely a "BIG NO NO" to hang out with friends cause I have a class in the afternoon/evening and in the morning for both weekends are already reserved to do all the housework. No time to go out and even if I do have, Ill be too tired to walk my legs out of the house.

Anyways, I wanted to post the pictures badly but I just couldnt find the time to do it. I just hope someday, I will have a nice, long update.. Damn! I really miss what I used to have.

Final say .. Im lucky to be born in May. ^^ Good movies coming up or currently showing and well, May is a month of blessings showering over me!

2007-05-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

This is pure madness! >_<

It began from me actually. Today, although there are things to do but I was already bored. Principal was out to assist teachers so she wasnt inside the General Office. So, I decided to take pictures of me and my partner, PeiXiu.

Somehow, the other intern from HP ( Hewlett Packard, not handphone, LOL) joined us and three of us ended up taking a lot of pics with PeiXiu's and my soft toys. Then May, TP graduate and on contract in that school, joined later. In the end, we wasted a lot of time taking kawaii pictures. Haha... Like I said, I was really bored sitting down, typing. I could go crazy.

Anyways, will not post them today. Maybe I will over the weekend, once I do some editing. By the way, this Primary School really has a few TP graduates.

2007-04-29T11:51:00.000+08:00

Because I fell in love with his voice

K or Kang Yoon Sung is a Japanese-based Korean artist. After producing a korean album, he failed terribly and thus, moved to Japan where he gain more popularity.Piano is his forte and 2 of his songs were even featured for 2 dramas. A vidspam because I like it! =)

K - Only Human

K - Over

K -The Day

K- Girlfriend

K - Dakishimetai

2007-04-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

Very lazy and tired even for now. Don't feel like updating at this very moment but since everyone were telling about theirs, so maybe I thought I'll just update about myself too.

First day was pretty okay. Actually, if I were to say I hate it, I'm lying. More so if I say I love it. It could be in between but in actual fact, I do enjoy my SIP in a primary school. It's quite torturous though since everywhere around me are speaking in "you know what" language. Most people are very comfy in their mother tongue language but due to all respects, even there is someone within that group who does not speak your language, even though you are not talking to them, it is very highly appreciative and considerable to talk in English. I'm not offending anyone here nor any slightest intention to do so. Like I said, basic manners are important. What if you who doesn't speak malay is only with me and then my malay friend comes along and thus, I began speaking in malay all the way with her? I'm sure that person will be so DAMN PISSED OFF. So that's how I feel. Whatever it is, I'll just consider them to be a ----- (shall not type anything here because I don't want the unintended to feel hurt because this entry isn't meant for my friends but I'm BOLDLY pointing at those in primary school)

And so, I felt pity to those admin people who are of other races. They will be sitting there wondering WHAT THE HELL happened and what's the current and hottest topic the others are talking about in their own world and their own language!!!!!

I'm apologising again because I just can't take all this nonsense from these kind of people. Seems like I'm venting all my anger out here. Then, I guess I have to stop here and carry on with my other updates! Then again, even if this carries on, although I'll be really bothered by it, but I'm going to strongly tell myself that again I'm blessed to be brought up with respect for others even at times I may unintentionally hurt and if i don't apologise but you know I'm sorry! =) So, I'll just continue doing my work to impress the supervisor..

The school was really a different place. Different to how I felt when I was in primary and secondary back then. Maybe because I'm always in the classroom and I'm unsure of the things going around in office but really, I think everyone is having fun. The principal doesn't look like one.The kids can just enter the office any time they like.A few staff there can listen to radio. It's indeed a relaxing environment to be despite all those problems I'm having. The general office where I'm curently seated house only 8 people, not including me and my SIP partner. I find that a good thing cause being in the staff room with all those teachers will make me even more nervous and I won't do the right things. In addition to all that, I hate working with a lot of people. Haha!

It's good to have such a partner but poor thing, she's from MWC. This posting is really not related to her. Like for our first week, we did video recording and most probably next week, edit it. Besides too, no WIRELESS! Yeah I know its a PRIMARY SCHOOL but the LAN connection itself is already super slow. More or less like our computer's lab level 2. Sighss!

Since I'm using the school's laptop, no LAN connection. Very limited I tell you. But I'l be bringing my own laptop starting next Monday and maybe the weeks when I think I need to. Mostly the reason is due to music. I need to listen to music so I won't fall asleep. (My mum's nagging though because sometimes, I'll be out of office to teach) It's difficult to stay awake, doing something like typing poems (LOL? Always ordered by principal, I think she likes me cause always want me to do something for her, hahahaa! And VP too. Decorate toilet? Not our batch but previous batch did it! Really, VP and P likes their interns to do silly things!!) and the weather is always rainy, with the heavenly aircon. Cold means it's very cozy to sleep, isn't it? ('',)

My partner and me too decided to make it our second home. Though I've never like to regard either school or work as one. I shall say I want to make myself very roomy and convenient here so both of us brought slippers and soft toys and I brought along small cushion so that my back will not hurt. With the snacks as well.

Made a lot of friends with primary 1 and 2 kids because we only deal with them and not the upper primary. Very very very lucky indeed cause these kids are already too mischievous and difficult to handle, what more those from the higher level. Once I got pushed by one of them, and now still dislike me. Heh~ He's very stubborn lah. Still want to argue with me. Then another, gave a drawing of me and the rest of the period, keep sticking to me. The others too. Want to manja with me. Although I shouted, they're not scared. Even during our lunch break, when we walked around the school, we were greeted by a lot of kids. Haha... At least, it felt we do belong to the school and the more I want to achieve my ambition of becoming a teacher.

Though I may say this but I don't know how to survive my remaining weeks teaching but let's just treat it I'm having "fun", Lol... I shall post pics of my seat and maybe my kiddy friends! ^_^

2007-04-10T16:58:00.000+08:00

Was all smiles today. Finally got to meet Lydia. She is as chatty as ever. Tsk Tsk.

It took us some time to decide over the phone where to go and what to shop for. I really need a break and do more shopping since Im a very addictive shopaholic but since tomorrow Ill be doing more shopping, I think I should or preferably MUST tone down today. At least.

After a long discussion, we decided to watch a movie. Wanted to catch "Because I Said So" badly but its not screening in any theaters nearby. So, finally, we went to TM (really sick of that place, buhh!) and settled on "Freedom Writers" . As expected , the movie is really good. Hilary Swank and the other casts are reasonably amazing too. Cried during the sad moments, hahaa! Couldnt help it because the movie brings a great lesson towards respecting other races. Its that good!

After all, was happy to be out again and looking forward to tomorrow. More excitement awaits us or rather me.A lot. =D

2007-04-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

I know how to appreciate because I have done so and I do feel so much blessed for

everything Ive received. But sometimes, Im too tired and sick of being confined to my

own grounds. Cant say much. Defying? I dont have the slightest intention to do so.

"To understand is simply even way too difficult to comprehend." Im only

filled with confusion. Very emotionally upset. Definitely agitated. Unsettling at the

moment. Its too rigid to think about being my ownself.

2007-04-02T11:26:00.000+08:00

~ Just another entry of my fondness ! xx

Set my eyes on him ( '' ,)

Been watching dramas and movies of my new favourite actor, Tamaki Hiroshi. Although he's already 28, still hot and handsome as ever. His acting is good too. Not superb but he potrays the characters very well. Tama chan is a singer too but sad to say, all his albums are not found in Spore as well as online. Waaaa! I want his songsss badly.

Anyways, try watching "Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteiru" aka "Just Loving You" or "Heavenly Forest".Heavenly Forest is not the real translation though. Its an international title as they said. He plays opposite my favourite cutesy actress, Miyazaki Aoi from "Nana" ( I so love her because she's really cute and very very pretty [Random. Yes I know]). Also, I think this movie is really sweet and touching. Prepare a boc of tissues. May be sad but its really worth to watch such movies. ^^,

Trailer

http://www.designchronicle.com/memento/archives/tada_aishiteru_trailer.html

( The summary of this movie)

Finally pictures of Tamaki Hiroshi !!!

2007-03-30T10:26:00.000+08:00

The weather these days are unpredictable yet "rhythm-able". Hot in the morning, rain in the afternoon then in the evening, back to being hot. At least in the East.

So, went out with Narisya yesterday in the afternoon for lunch at gelare. Trying really hard to eat as slow as we can to pass the time.But we failed. "o_o" By the time we finished our lunches, it was only 2.15. Decided then to head on to TM.Again. (Really sick of it T_T ) Oh wells!

Back to TM~ What we usually did is taking NEOPRINTS!! =DD If only I can OWN 1 at home.Wouldnt it be great?! EVERYDAY Ill keep taking it. So..yeah, I guess? Lol.. But it was very enjoyable. Talking about our fangirling addictions. Getting all excited and hyperly active about kame and pi. And I kept laughing as though I was a drunkard.I suppose I was ne, akira? Haha.. We're both drunkards la ~! XDD

Neoprints!!

2007-03-28T08:00:00.000+08:00

Food for thought : Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you

2007-03-23T14:32:00.000+08:00

For the past week, havent been doing anything at all. Stay at home, doing housework-chores, learning to cook new dishes by myself since mum is working so she will only teach me the day before at night. Become quite good in the kitchen already, ehem! ><

Anyways, other than that, i will put my lazy butt in front of my com and start watching all the J-dramas. Life's nothing without them ne!! I think i cant survive well in this environment without getting myself to watch all this. You even got a chance to watch all those cuuteee and hot guysss ~~ ^^" I think its better too to watch J-Dramas or maybe K-dramas than maybe local ones? I dont know but I already lost count on the amount of J-dramas i have watched or going to compared to local ones. Got myself purely hooked to them so it doesnt really matter if there isnt any tv. Im still able to survive. Heh.

Yesterday, i finally settled my decision to watch another J-Drama (duh~) "Last Christmas" . Sounds sad ne? Haha.. This is where Im a little bit weird or maybe very weird cause I hate happy endings but always end up watching them.

Maybe I like to make myself all swelled up and teary eyed. I guess Im a VERY emotional person. I can even cry from watching a 3 mins video. Or as a fact, when I was watching CSI, I got myself to sit and watched the first few mins of the show and then I decided to change the channel. Eventually, I didnt really know the whole story. A brief of it maybe. Then the last 10 mins, I watched it back and the atmosphere of people crying, hugging at the funeral makes me unknowingly to cry. Hehs! Weird nee~

Right, haha! Gotten a bit off there~ Back to where I was talking about. "Last Christmas" I assure you is a really good drama. Its filled with romance definitely since most of us love such genre but its not those typical teenagers and those kind of sweet nothings, huggings or even kissings. Its entirely acted out by adults. Yes, adults! My all time fav actor Oda Yuji and quite a cute average guy Tamaki Hiroshi. No pervertic or dirty parts either but I just find it really really good. Cant express how great it is. Those who likes to watch J/K-Dramas, should try watching it. Sad but very very very very touching and has a very good ending. As for me, I have cried a lot whenever there are sad parts. Cant help it but Im sure others wont cry over it. Its just me. 0_O Pretty sad huh. Crying over nothing and for all I know, Fawwah, you need to learn how to cry when watching sad moments. Hahaha! You should cause the actors are crying and my dear fawwah can sit there expressionless =_=

Therefore, I seriously think its one of the best romance dramas I ever watched. =) Try watching it ya, trust me, its that damn good!

"Memories are memories but

people still prefer to keep them"~

2007-03-21T09:07:00.000+08:00

* And so I love this song. A lot! *

This is the first Jap song I listened to back then when I got so heavily addicted to the Jap entertainment and such. But the first Jap singer i got to know is of course Ayumi Hamasaki. She is indeed popular so everyone surely knows her. Or maybe not Heh. =D
This song is really nice and Tackey is such a cutieee! *Sighss*

Takizawa Hideaki - Kiseki

2007-03-13T12:42:00.000+08:00

Finally picturesss.. Hah. Only uploading Wu Zun for today ~ ^^ Double Smile! =D

2007-03-13T11:03:00.000+08:00

Ive recently discovered that i have an extremely, terribly, horribly and offensively bad temper! Hahahaha! Its lame and stupid lah cause its obvious im not like such and some people always get a shocking when i told them i used to shout at a bunch of people. Anyways, i dont get mad over trivial things. Im always chilling and smiling! LOL! =D

PS Still collecting picssyss of my pretty boys. BUHH. xx

2007-03-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

Oooh...Narisya just posted pics on her new hairdo~ since most people are already nagging at her, ne akira? haha.. Now its my turn ;)

Mummy was on leave today to attend to this visitor so in the morning both of us went for a haircut cause she was nagging non stop for her to get a hair cut and she insists on me having short hair. So, i decided to finally cut my hair last few weeks actually but whenever we're out to have a haircut, other important events will take place. Yups! Finally a new hair style for me, heeee!

Random picsss of me and mum* (Mummy not photogenic and she confessed too, -___-)

2007-03-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

Went to VivoCity this afternoon with my 2 dearest parents just because i want to watch "Letters from Iwo Jima" badly. But we were late for the 1.15 time slot, because all the blame goes to my dad's friend's brother (LOL?) wedding invitation.The people there talked so much to daddy so instead of being rude, my dad has no choice but to stay a bit longer. Heh. So in the end, we only did window shopping and mummy bought kitchen's stuffs (she definitely cant resist those) and I eventually didnt buy anything. Plan to get a wallet though but i was already confused with the amount of stores there and since its a weekend, it was a BIT crowded, huuuu~

Its a shame that i did not bring home any darlingsss (stuffs..lol!). Whenever i go out, there will always be things that I will spend on. Shame! Shame! What a Shame!

Oh Oh Oh, heeeee! I was practically persuading daddy to take the Star Virgo and he told me that maybe we will sometime soon.No.Maybe when he is on leave and that is mmmm...eto... Okay, never mind! *Slaps me* But i hope we will and we can go on a cruise. Hohoooo! Thats something i will look forward to,haha!

2007-02-28T13:25:00.000+08:00

Promise an update after the exams, heee!~ Will post lotssss of pretty boys! *buhh*

2007-02-04T16:27:00.001+08:00

Kimi no Suki na Uta
The Song That You Like

sukidayo to kyou mo ienai mama
I still can't tell you that I like you
miokutta ima made isshouni ita no ni
I watched you go; even though we were together all along
aitakute kimi no suki na uta wo kurikaeshi
I want to see you; I repeat the same song that you like
kuchi zusanda kaeri michi
humming it on the way home

hanasu koe no ton
The tone of your voice when you talk
shisen no saki hokano dareka to kawasu kotoba sae
what's beyond your eyes
sasaena kimi no shigusa ga boku wo madoseru
even the words that you exchange with someone else
kimi no kimochi ga onaji youni
Your trivial gestures bewilder me
kotae ga koko de arimasu youni
I hope that your feelings are the same and that the answers lie here
kitto zutto matta kiseki yo okorunara ima koko de
Certainly, this miracle I waited for will occur here

sukidayo to kyou mo ienai mama
I still cant tell you that I like you
miokutta ima made isshouni ita no ni
I watched you go, even though we were together all along
aitakute kimi no suki na uta wo kurikaeshi
I want to see you, I repeat the same song that you like
kuchi zusanda kaeri michi
humming it on the way home

guzen fureta te
The hand that I coincidently touched
kimi no taiyon sae itoshikute
even your warmth is dear
boku no subete wo ukeirete kureru ki ga shita
I felt that you would take all me in
deaeta koto de kitsuketa koto ga boku wo
The things that I realized after meeting you
kaete yuku ima made ijo ni
changed me, more than now

mo ni do to hito wo aisanai to
I said that I would never love again
mae no koi utsumuiteita boku mo
and was low from the last love
mo ichi do dareka no tameni ikitai to omoeta
but I thought that I would live once more for someone
kono kimochi wo tsutae ni yuku yo
I'm going to go tell this feeling

doko ni itte mo nani wo shiteru toki mo
No matter where I am or what I'm doing,
kimi no koto ga atama kara hanarenai
you won't stay out of my mind
oshiete kureta todokanu tsurasa
You taught me the hardship of not being able to reach
koi no setsunasa ai suru yorokobi wo
The pain of love and the happiness of love

sono egao mo juwaki goshi no koe mo
Even your smile and your voice over the phone-your small body that was
hitogomi ga nigatena chisana karada
not fit for large crowds of people
warui kusemo kimi ni shikanai mono no de kagayaite iru
Even your bad habits shine because they're something that only you have
subete ga one and only
all of it it is one and only

boku no naka de kimi wo omou koto ga
Inside of me, thinking about you
ashita no ikiru chikara ni kawatteku
changes into the strength to live tomorrow
moshi muki aeta nara onaji ...hohaba de
If we are able to face each other, let's walk the road where we can
shinji aeru michi wo aruite yukou
believe in each other

konna ni mo kimi wo omou dake de
From just thinking about you this much
kurushikute itoshisa tsunoru kimochi
I'm in pain and your dearness increases
aitakute kimi no suki na uta wo kurikaeshi
I want to see you; I repeat the same song that you like
kuchi zusanda kaeri michi
humming it on the way home

2007-02-01T16:11:00.001+08:00

Wokayyyy...They're already mad at me for not updating my blog sooner..T^T Sorry lah~

Okiess! Its week 15 now and it means that i have 2 more weeks left for all the assignments to submit and then,thats it? 1 week of study break and the exams come after that and...we're done? NOOOO!!! I dont want it to end.I dont want the holidays either.Not because ill get bored since im not going to work for this coming sem break but....but...it just means that all of us are getting older and time seem to pass really fast.How i hate it.A lot.Also, this coming April will be our attachment.Wonder where i will be posted to if i were to decline the one already offered.Heh....

All i could do is to sigh and wait for the holidays.The only period where all of us get to "enjoy" ourselves to the fullest before our next school term start.It means more shopping for me and to chill out with friends.This is something i got to look forward to.The only time i can see their faces.How i miss them so much! Therefore, lets try our best for this remaining 2 weeks! Lets ace in the assignments as well as the exams!! (' ' ,)

2006-12-29T21:05:00.001+08:00

No more reasons for me to hate thursdays now. *ahakz* Prison Break makes my day and i look forward to thurdays soooo much. ^___^
Going extremely crazy over Wentworth!! Cant take my eyes off him. Gawd!! He's such a hottie!! *Gasps*

School is going to make its way very soon. Uhhh.....Can i just have more holidays please!?
But I guess its okay! Wentworth is there to save me! *Ahemzz* XD

Happy New Year everyone!!

2006-12-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

Hate the weather today.Didnt get to move around much cause i was drenched.Did bring an umbrella but there were puddles of water everywhere.My jeans were wet and urghh! Hate it.There were a lot of people in the town area. Kids everywhere as well as "ang mohs". No cute ones lah, haha. Anyway, pyon and me decided to take neoprint together.As for me, i think im very well addicted to this!

Me acting cute as always. >__<

The prints are a bit blur and off pixels. Urghh! I have always hated distortions. Finally, got the time to go out with pyon although the weather was giving us a very hard time. *huhuhu* T.T Although we are in the same school and the same bulding, dont usually see each other. But i always bump into the wrong people.Heh!

Happy holidays peeps! Spend wisely on the last few days before school reopen! =)

2006-12-26T10:29:00.000+08:00

I have nothing to say. Haha.Going out soon at 11.30 to meet Pyon~ The weather is bad, really bad.Hope it will stop raining for now at least cause i want to spend the afternoon going to lots of places and of course without carrying an umbrella. *Sighss*

2006-12-18T19:14:00.000+08:00

It rained the whole day. Went to school for my practical session. It was supposed to be tomorrow but yeah, they changed it. Wasnt bad.Quite fun. But the lab has this weird smell i swear. Anyway, another project to do for CDS whereby we are required to create a game for 12 year old kids and guess what? Its individual. Its not a bad thing but i suppose creating and designing a game should be done in groups. That was what my other mates think too. >_<

Holidays are equivalent to none. Will have to go back to school for project meetings and yeah, for CDS too cause they want to do it together. *huhuhu* Lecturers are witches in disguise i tell you *hoho*.

*Suddenly eyes sparkles, smile widely*

After practical, met this friend of mine, erm..actually not really a friend because we were in the same class in sec 1 but for the next 3 years, we were in different classes, so didnt talk to each other anymore. He's a quiet guy by nature so yar. What really surprised me is he's becoming cuter. Hahaha -____-

Everytime i see him, there's always something about him that attracts me but.... i dont have any crushes on him wokay! Lol... Maybe its just a nice and calm feeling to look at him? Haha....This is what happen to people who are single. XD

2006-12-18T10:14:00.000+08:00

*giggles*

She introduced me to this manga and now im hooked to it. Falling in love with it day by day. Falling in love with each of the characters as well.

*Ehem*

Sorry peeps.Hahaha! Im just a crazy human being who is crazy on the japanese department ( the manga, the anime, the dramas). ^_^

Zero x yuuki shipper! *Stares at pic* This couple is everyone's favourite and one fact, Zero is hot!

*Cosplaying as Zero in Japan* She's a girl ne? Can see she's a girl. LOL!

*Yuuki* =) =)

*Kaname*
Im so x1000 into their uniform. Its like really cool and prettyyy! *huhu*

Anyway enjoy your holidays peeps! Will come back with a proper post. *Kyaaaahh*

2006-12-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

I came to realise that im not an organized person after all..Lolsss! Maybe in certain areas but other than that, im pretty messy! Thats the true me you know~ Being all cutey messy at home, wahaha!

Also, my blog is like urghh! I just dump everything in the same paragraph.When i read it again, i only got headaches.How come u all didnt tell me..hmphh! Heh.

Anyways, ill be very very organized and careful from now on.Lols..I dont really know what to update cause im just lazy lah okay! Happy?! Haha..okay, whatever elmo!

2006-11-23T10:28:00.000+08:00

Its WAD lesson and im half dead~ its so "heavenly" boring and everyone are slacking and doing their own stuffs..

Haha..Finally updating..I think this blog is just as dead as me..

Week 5, time past really fast..Soon, we will only realise its time for our attachment!

God, i dont want to grow that fast..I want to stay at 18..

Im greedy but thats what humans are..There's so much things to do and enjoy!

He didnt turn up today..Guess he's dead!! Yesterday, everyone was pissed of at him..Sick? Right, still come online to game..Or maybe not but ya, he's just an idiot! We were so nice waiting for him, yet, he didnt even bother to msg us or me..I know you dont care and im sure you hated my guts a lot so why dont you just drop out of school so everyone's life will be happy and blessed..Especially mine!! =)

I know im becoming meaner nowadays but i cant helped it..He is making me having high blood presurre!! Urghh!!

So many assignments to do! And i always feel like shopping..Haha..Well kinda completed most of it, so i can actually declare my freedom..*phew* but yeah, mum wants me to stay at home to revise my work cause term testing is coming too..

He is giving us answers to the lab activities now..He's just a dock! Cant even explain properly on what we're supposed to do for our assignment..No one has any ideas on how to start the assigment..Haix....

Im really hungry!! o_O Left the house without breakfast..If mum comes to know about it, she's gonna screamed at me till .. well..she wont stop..lol..i know she's worried about me but i cant eat in the morning..Will only make the situation worse..

Why are we attached in the first place? We didnt do anything wrong and it seems like all arrows are pointing in our direction instead..Hey ppl, dont blame or give the looks if you dont know whats in it!! You're just telling me you are plain stupid! Problems problems and problems!! Im sick of it...We dont even know where we went wrong and this is what happened! If only i can just beat them and take out their stupid, dirty smelly brains just like them..Clean them and donate to those who need it more..Wahaha! its so digusting but wish that could happen to them..No, maybe one day it will..If they continue behaving as such..They should remain in nursery! Go and play with all your dolls if they have one anyway..

My blogging is boring lah! All about the not-so-smart people and although i love to criticise and comment, i just thinks its really bad..Have to stop.....Toots!!

2006-10-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

Im back and now with a proper update..Like finally because got caught up with school stuffs and Hari Raya celebrations..=)

Okay!! Hehex..Lets see..Ive posted few pictures in my work place and of course with my own vain pics.Sorry, cant help it..Once you got a camera, all you have to do is snap away that pretty picture of yours neh? Haha..so yeap..from now one, the other section will contain pictures instead of quotes because i think it is more convenient and easy for me..Im being lazy too,lol..0__0

Yosh!! Going to update about the things i did during sem break..As most of you all know, was woking at my mum's place..Pretty boring lah actually but i made nice friends like farah, sarah, nurul,farhana and other gerls and guys..Pyon was there too..Everyday go to work with her and she always bully me..She's so mean lah haha...

Well then, ive got alot of dates to attend to..Date with Narisya!! Want to watch Death Note badly with her ..Although she watched already but since the movie storyline is really captivating, she wants to watch again and how sweet of her to watch it with me! Arigatou Green Chan~~ *nods*..hehe..Then promise pyon and farah that we will be dining out to celebrate pyon birthday which is like 2 weeks ago and during that time, it was fasting month..Thank god pyon for being so understanding!! Then there is Lydia..She's such a sweet person too..She bought a souvernier for me from erm..Vietnam,CDS..Yeah..Then there is my half sis who also wants to go out with me because right now she is on her 2 week break after attachment..Poor girl!! Then there's this guy from my sec school called Rasyidi..Called me a few times today cause he wants to meet up with me..Its been quite some time didnt chat/meet with him..So sorry! Everyone of us are occupied with our own things to do and responsibilities..Finally there is this other guy too...Always sound desperate whenever he msg me..OMG lah that guy!! I admit he is a sweet guy because he is always there for me to voice out my anger and complaints but i need space..Forget it!! He is just who he is lah...

*Clinks* *Clinks*

An update about myself!! Im sure everyone knew about it but just going to key it in here anyway..Broke up with ***** during the last errr...i dont know..I dont want to know anway! Just now i saw him sitting alone at concourse, i predicted he is waiting for his class for that afternoon lah..Then me and Narisya walked towards his direction lah and he being a fool as always thought i was going to sit around there or past him or whatever, got up and went to canteen or wherever he wants to go to avoid me i think..thats really immature lah! I mean i dont have anything against him..In my point, i will definitely shoot arrows at him..I dont know the real reason behind this breakup although i was the one who initiate it but he acting all innocent and naive and as though putting the blame on me!! Whats wrong with guys?! There is this guy in MWC too who suffers from lack of maturism who simply could not see the mistakes he has done and thus put the blame and the embarassment on my poor darling..........Haix.. i just couldnt take it anymore..I cant just shut up, shouldering all the guilt he is giving me..I want to confront him and ask him whats the problem with him..As far as i know i have done nothing wrong..Even if i did, well i really couldnt remember when and what mistakes, okay..leave it! Its futile for me to recall or try to recall my mistakes..

His sweet talks are all jokes..Typical guys..Should not believe in what he said from the beginning..i was a fool actually..I DID like him but i was confused if i should accept or reject him when he asked me..My feelings were just there, hanging and i thought if i refuse, i will regret, if i do accept him, it will be a lifelong happiness but everything was wrong..It shouldnt begin, it should just end!! After the break up, pyon was asking if im ok because i was smilling all the way..I cant lie to myself..Felt relieved but i was aching...So hurt but i know i should not waste my tears on this kind of situations..*sigh* *sigh* *sigh* If only im a witch!!

I guess im going to end my composition about him..He wont appear anymore in this story because i have killed the character..Its better off this way as the remaining characters will feel glad..

Then last Wed, finish school at 7 and on my way home,raining and so called Mummy to pick me up at the bus stop because i didnt bring umbrella..Lazy to stop at bedok inter because by doing so will only cause my jouney to be longer and i was too tired to drag my feet all the way to inter..As expected got scolded by her on the phone but being a Mother, she says okay on picking me up.. Then inside the bus, alone, noises coming from the rain outside clattering on the bus windows and the passengers chattering away..Dreaming when suddenly (i think my blogging sound and/or look as though im writing a compo..*Laughs Out Loud*) received a msg from spongey! This guy i met during OLTC..Very friendly and fun guy to be with..Told him last january not to forget me once he enter NS and i assume he will cause guys being guys, but he didnt..So yarr~~ he was wishing me Hari Raya lah and its funny cuz you're supposed to be wishing it on Tuesday instead..Told him that and he was giving me the laughter lah..All the way home, i wasnt bored..was busy msging him lah..He sent really farny yet sweet msgs lah..Haha...Oh no fas!! Better be careful, not another one..Anyway, i have the tendency to fall for nice guys easily..Cant help it..Thats me!!

Have to end pretty soon..Need to continue doing school stuffs..Whatever there is to do before next week as ill be busy over the weekends..Gawd!! Im so frustrated when i keep thinking about it...Haix.....

2006-10-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

Im back again but not with a proper post..Today ended school at 1 and still within Hari Raya celebration, got to finish up a lot of school stuffs before the coming weekend.Sunday will be going out visiting and saturday,probably my aunties are coming over..*Sigh*..
*Shivers* Weather very cold now..The wind is like blowing inside of my house..Anyway, where was I? Oh ya! *slaps forehead* School started last Monday and everything was laid out before us like projects which need to be completed by this certain date and must do this and that..Haix..All the excitement just vanished! More stress coming along the way. Promise will be updating soon and posting pics but not for now..Gomen Gomen!! Have a nice Week!!

2006-10-15T17:23:00.000+08:00

Hey Peeps~ Been quite some time i didnt update my blog! Gomen Gomen~~ Currently working at my mum's place so pretty busy down here..So much stuffys to do, and being Head Planner of the House is droopy and strenuous! Although i do enjoy it, hahaha! lamelamelame~~

Anyway, will be updating soon..So wait for me..WEEEE!!

2006-08-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

Week 17 is two days away.Time past really fast.I thought that my life of short happines will end very soon but someone swept me off my feet. I love him and only him! Now im pretty much confident my happiness will last,hopefully.I just want to be happy with him and no one else(with my family also lah,lols). Couldnt stop missing him.I feel so appreciated that he cares a lot about me. Thank U dear!

Okay! Well nothing much to say.By reading the first paragraph, you should have guess the happiness that im feeling right now.Im contented! Hahax..anyways, more stress! INMM is making me petrified! I dont want to go for the interview..I hate it! Can i skip? Boo Hoo!!

Listening to random songs right now, English and Japanese and also doing INMM.Just couldnt wait for the holidays to come and spent more time with him..Hehehe!!

2006-08-09T09:55:00.000+08:00

Today 9th August 2006--

Its Singapore's Birthday? Serious? Lols..Cant believe that i almost forgot, well basically because it is not my friend, so i dont really bother..Wah!! What a loyal citizen i am..hahax..*kill me*

Although its a holiday, but it means more work needs to be done.. Completed by CMSK Report yesterday, Tuesday..Today must finish STMD Report, INMM Gallery and STMD adding of the Cue Points..Tough Tough..

Woke up just now at 8 plus..Bathe and brush my teeth then eat breakfast and switch on my laptop..My parents went out to go market..Hahax..The lovey dovey is out..Its 10 am and they are still not back..Whats are they doing out there? Helping the fishmonger and the butcher to sell is it? *LOLS*..I sound like old people..Its true because they like to say like that..ee..I dont want to grow old..Wrinkles,Arghh!! Ugly!! *Faints* Listening to all kinds of music -- English, Japanese, Korean. All sorts..Singing along with them, yeah i know m voice does not have the sweet tune and not bery melodious so that is why it rained..Haix...Exams are coming..INMM, there's a lot that need to be done and Action Script!! *Please kill me* I hate it..I dont even know how to finish it up..Well yeah i have start doing it but still...*Tooted*

I think i shall get back to my work..If not ill complain if i have uncompleted work..*Ganbatte*

2006-08-01T22:27:00.001+08:00

Its been quite some time did not update the blog.Been busy with assignments due and more assignments coming up,Stress!! Did not have the time to do what I like..Arghh!! Hate it when i have to sacrifice.Although I think i can still squeeze in a tiny weeny time to do schtuffies, but still i will feel guilty because i spend the time doing other stuffs..Thats me, innocent? hahax..Well, its a dreadful day today..Always hated Monday(Monday blues as everyone called it), but now Tuesdays too..Dont want to drag my Tuesdays into the boring list..All because of CDS!! My tutor is plainly unreasonable..Nagging away, giving people the impression that we are so not smart enough,Heh!!! I better idle around than wasting my time opening up my ears to her..Bleahz!!

Anyway im down here to just post the lame schtuffies which i enjoyed pretty much and by a lot of people to..Its in a craze now..Hope this trend will continue..Keep going people..Be addicted!

***___*** Japanese Dramas(Watched) ***___***

Hoshi No Kinka (Recommended, very sad, touchy)

Love Story In Tokyo(Love triangle, sad but very good)

Under One Roof(A great Family Drama)

Okami No Sandai Onna no Tatakai(Family)

Summer Snow(Err...Ok..Not Bad)

Shota Shushi(Takashi is really cute =) )

Trick 3(The so called investigator is damn funny)

Hero(Takuya Kimura, all time fav actor, + talented ++)

To heart (Complicated but happy ending in the end)

The Daughter of Iguana(Okada(Main actor) is really cute, now 27, old already)

Files of Young Kindaichi 3 (Jun Matsumoto innocent face in htis drama)

Pride(Takuya)

Good Luck(Takuya again (' ' ,) )

Double Score (Oshio very kawaii and really tall, standing at a height of 1.87)

Water Boys(All the guys are cute)

1 Litre of Tears(An awesome heartfelt drama, cried in all parts of each episode)

Hana Yori Dango(Jun, jun, jun *jumps*)

Nobuta Wo Produce(Where my bf make his debut and Maki chan, my fav actress only 18 but talented)

Nana The Movie(Cute Movie for cute people like me, LOLS)

Ace Wo Nerae(Sports genre, in this context its about tennis)

Kimi to itahibi(Yamada is cute, but not so cute as my bf)

Strawberry on the Shortcake(Kyoko chan and Takizawa chan,ahhh!!!)

Kamikaze Girls(Kyoko chan, stupid but hilarious)

Itarazuna No Kiss(The girls is ugly )= =( )

Always(Maki Chan)

Kurosagi(Yamapi, my bf and Maki chan!! =) =) )

***___*** Japanese Dramas(Want to watch) ***___***

Kamisama Mou sukoshi Desu

Attack No 1

Attention Please

Kou Kou Kyoushi

Ganbatte Ikimasshoi

Dragon Zakura(My bf in it)

Gokusen 1 and 2

One Missed Call(Maki chan's in it)

Tsubasa No Oreta Tenshitachi(Maki chan!!! Lols)

Prince of Tennis - Live Action(The main actor is really handsome, MUST WATCHED)

meitantei Konan(Oguri Shun,ahhh! *drools*)

Crying out Love, In the center of the world(I think its a sad movie)

***___ Korean Dramas(Watched) ***___***

My Girl(Fav Korean Drama,the best)

Goong(Jeong Hoon has a baby face,awww!)

Save the last dance for me(Guy got amnesia, guy saved by girl, both fall in love, then what?)

A love to Kill(Rain rain go away, come again another day)

My Bride is 18(Comedy is the word)

***___ Korean Dramas(Want to Watch) ***___***

My Love Patzzi

Tree of Heaven(Highly Recommended, good storyline)

Spring Waltz

Daddy Long Legs

Jenny Juno

King and Clown(Jun ki, You are really pretty)

Now and Forever

Millionaire's First Love

My sister-in-law is 19

Snow White

Im sorry i love You(Painful Story)

2006-07-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

Im back with another post...Wah!! I feel soo free when there are other things for me to do..Anyway, im back again with a lot of pictures to post..So here they are..and some pics were taken while im bored..Hahax..Dont blame me if im all lame but its fun..hahax...thats what i think at least since i got nothing better to do and to keep myself awake...

This pic was taken this morning before i left home to school ..Im VAIN anyway..I look pretty good so why not take a snapshot?? lols..I look eerie..

That is me and Narisya..I wanted to take lots of pics so i decided to take our picture together and this is outside LT waiting for DBSY lecture...Heehex....

This is during Swen Lecture and we are sooooooo super bored..Can imagine the boredom there..So narisya is striking a pose here..Aka Makino..*Whispers* (She surfs and blog during the lecture U know..How could she right, didnt pay attention.. :x Hahax.. In a boring lecture with a boring lecturer and with students feeling bored..Its all the teacher's fault..*Points to him below* Bleahz!!

Here is the scary einstein who is really slow in everyting..He dont know how to manage his time well and like to drag unnecessary stuff..He even cannot pronounce ppl's name properly or in a normal pace..Must pronounce like "Tsuu- Kaa- Saa"..Lols...Annoying lah actually..By the way, Ure caught on camera..So dont try anything funny here einstein..

This is the hardworking people who listen so attentively to the boring lecturer..Just look at them..Gosh* How can they give their concentration..*So much focus* Admire....

Lan hui started to get bored already..Err...she's always bored in all lectures..Lols..

Look at my hand..Dont try anything funny here before this five fingers come flying on your cheek =_=

This corner is the Multimedia corner..Die die must use laptop..And oh so not paying attention here..Look at them who are busy staring at their beautiful laptop screen..I can read their minds..They were saying *Its better to stare at my laptop.Can do better and more useful things than staring at your so not handsome face*..Its not me..Its them.. =)

This was taken on Monday on Jane's new handphone..When i got mine , i took her pic..So now i guess its her turn huh..*nods* -_- Do i Look sweet here?

This is quite old..I think about a month ago..When i had my new handphone and i was still trying to take pics with it..So this is my best friend,Hui Yin..We are in the bus..Hahax..*Moving Beauties* ;-) Speaking of it, i guess that my handphone is already a month old..Woah!! Thats quite fast isnt it..It feels as though i just bought it a week ago..Hahax..

Me and Jane..Yeapx..Trying my new handphone..

2006-07-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

Was in a very bad mood today..Something happened and i could never forgive or forget about it..It got stucked to my mind now and im feeling very uncomfortable and i could not relax myself..

Sigh**Its not my fault anyway and U made it worse..Call yourself a lecturer but U dont even know how to be sensitive towards other people feelings..Ure the worse person i ever met and the worse role model..Wait! In the first place I dont even think U can be one..Ure not capable of being one anyway.... Damn, this is infuriating..! I shall prove it that i can make it just like U said although i hated it soo much..!!

2006-07-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Its getting late and im supposed to be in bed already but lately, ive been lacking sleep due to all the projects that are supposed to be done..As the days go by, i feel really tired of everything but i could npot complain as this is the path that i have chosen.So here i am and i want to give my all so that when i look back upon myself, i can feel that there is something about me to be proud of..

Anyways, i think im done with INMM becasue i dont know what to add and what to do anymore..Have insertes all sound clips and edited a lot of times..Did this and done that, adding words here and there, but its still not enough..There must be something i left behind but im not sure what it was.Perhaps i should take it slow and maybe stop thinking about it..I could not sleep peacefully these days too..I slept very late yet woke up early..Am i tired? of course but im not sure myself why im like that..

So just now, i went to somebody's blog and you're there to read and navigate someone's blog right? and not to stare at it thinking and looking at how beautiful or abstract the skin is..So i read *her* blog and it was a sudden feeling that striked me emotionally.Well i am an emotional person (*laughs*) but there she is, with all the pics she posted and the entries she keyed in makes me sad and i sympathise her a lot..Not that she wants to or knew about it but its just so sad..I wont blog about her that much because i think its bad to gossip about other people..So lets just say she is my secondary school friend, been in the same class for four years *ouch* but all i know during our sec 4 yrs, we are a bit close..Maybe because she keeps asking me Science qns (was a Sci freak that time,ehem(LOL)) and i always advice her to study hard for her future and so after O levels, most of us lost contact and i was really eager to know about her and her blog tell all the tales of her..Where does her future lie actually? By working and stop thinking what is going to happen in the future? That nothing matters anymore as long as you're happy? It doesnt have to be that way isnt it..This is why i felt so bad.. i dont know to who but that feeling is circling around me.. She is a very nice peson and i just want what is best to all my friends, because i care.....Didnt talk to her online as i think its not necessary anymore..Been 2 long yrs since we both chatted..Whats the point anyway..Only if i hold the key to everything that controls the earth, i will want simply the best for all my dear ones..DOesnt matter who as long as i know you and to show that i really care..Back then i already knew she wasnt keen on her studies, but she's intelligent..For now, everything has gone wasted..all i could do is to pray that she will be fine, and so does everyone..

Then i upload few old pics on friendster..Let me tell yar, friendster have died on me..Im not interested about it anymore, only at times when i think that i got the mood to look at it, then i will. No particular reasons actually...

Also yesterday, i chatted with my old fren from sec school,he's a guy,lol..Its been quite some time i keep in touch with my other sec school frens and i miss those times a lot although i always got teased by all the guys..heh! So we chatted about one stuff i think? and we share a common interest and that is on Animes..Hahax..he's just like me and he also said that he's more to the dramas side,like me but i think i kinda love both of them..Okay, i love everything..Just everything that is pleasant to watch but more to the Jap side, well yar..hmm..Yar..lols..

Its 12 am and its already Monday..Time does pass by fast and soon without realising i will reach the stage of going a level up in poly life..and then graduate..everything happens in a quick time..Gawd, there is so much things to do and yet soo little time was given..I hate Mondays!! Monday blues..Its been like that since secondary? hahax..always hate mondays not because its the starting day of the week but because of the events that is always going to happen every Monday..Hate it!! Will only go home at 7pm and then ill be completely tired and the next day my lesson starts at 8..So uncool..and frustrating..Although i could see *hmm-mm* but still, it doesnt make my day..After all, i strongly think that i can forget bout having these feelings for him..Just move on,its not that bad..

Starting tomorrow, there will be more work to do..Projects projects projects are the only current things i can think of ..Even when sleeping and doing leisure stuffys...Urghhh..i dont think there is even a spare time for me to think about leisure..hahax..life is really busy huh..

Its 12.06 and im not sure what i should do..i cant sleep and i dont want to be on my lappy dear anymore but that will leave me with boredom..Its hard to kill me boredom..Not eveyrone can help me with it..SIgh...i want a happy ending in life...

Never mind..SInce im really bored and i just realised that this is my longest entries compared to the previous, just put it here what i felt was OK to read..Its lame, i know** -_-''

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1) Been downloading more animes to be watched during Sem break

2) Spend a lot of time on computer/ lappy because of stupid projects

3) Thinking of watching Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest

4) Johnny Depp is cute while Orlando Bloom is forever mine

5)Cant understand what Keira Knightley was saying because i hate British accents

6)My maid is going back home in a week's time

7) Going to do more household chores because i cant depend everything on Mum

8) Have to cook,its not a bad thing.Done that always

9) I think i can cook and bake well *Smiles*

10) Very particular about hygiene stuff and hygienic places

11) Still not sleepy

12) Hates UCulture CDS, everthing is not right from the beginning when i step into the class

13) Hates oily food, dont eat Malay Kueh (my parents know i hate them, Sorry lah)

14) My family (especially Mum) is very concern about the food we eat

15) She cooks less salt, less oil, less sugar, more veg dish

16) Taking good care of myself, dont want to fall sick

17) Still not sleepy

18) Favourite colour blue

19) Today is cold as it rained the whole day

20) Started watching a new KDrama "A love to Kill" (Pretty Good)

21) Stayed with noisy, unconsiderate, brainless neighbours

22) Not going to cut my long nails (They're pretty u know)

23) Listening to K(Kei) songs ( He's korean but he sings Jap songs,all sentimental)

24) Everyone is sleeping soundly

25) Shoot, im not sleepy

26) Save the Last Dance for me (Kdrama) is really good except that the actor is not HOT

27) Had my favourite dish, Rendang for dinner

28) I want to keep smilling even when im hurt

29) Live life to the fullest

30) I love my family

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*[Look at me and U wont ever Regret]*_..

2006-07-07T11:21:00.000+08:00

Wanted to upload this last 2 months but yar lol..hahax..was busy with normal stuff u know and yar i was kind of lazy lah...so lol...
Anyways, that day was fun because Narisya showed me around Marina Square,havent been there cuz i was not allowed to go there only if im with parents,hahax..although im old but this is my life..Its not as though im tired or got angry about it but im just grateful to how i was brought up..Okay,im off topic..lol..
So after that, we went to Swensens and she treated me with with Birthday Ice Cream(above)...She's soo nice nice!!! Thanx yar!! Hahax, i sound so pathetic and outdated..
Then we went to Esplanade as i have never been there either..The scenery is just 'Wow'..Really beautiful...

Then we were getting bored actually because we are lingering around,windows shopping basically due to i dont have enough money to buy expensive stuff..U have to be under budget at times too..Im a shopping freak, soooo i must have an enourmous pocket in the future to satisfy my hunger for shopping or ill DIE!!! Lolx.....

*Gasps*...

Nah is sooo boring..She is talking so super slow explaining STMD term test and so i got no choice but to continue blogging before i fell asleep since im lacking sleep nowadays..Just shut up and move on lah....Lol...im also doing like three things at the moments..*"Paying attention to Nah", writing down answers, blogging and smsing Narisya..Lols...i feel so smart..Seriously am i smart? OR am i being boastful about bragging this kind of stuffies? hahax...should be proud of myself no matter who i am..After all, i have to live in this world for GOD knows how long its going to be..So gotta enjoy it even if it means heartbreaking moments, come across STUPID people..Yar...............thats life you know..Like someone said (heex!!!) im an emotional love kind of person so i ALWAYS expect or WANT a happy ending in life..Like Cinderella or Beauty and the Beast..My life have to be sweet and pure in order to survive.....*Is somebody already puking?* U know who u are...lols..

Nah is gone and everyone is so hyped up now and once again the lab is noisy..Bla bla bla...I dont know what to blog anymore..Its kind of infuriating if all i ever blog is on him right..Must blog more about other things..Of course there are more events in my life but i think its tooo personal to type it here..So all i do is to crap here lah..I think better stop..Nothing already..Getting nonsense..No content already..So stop reading, dont waste your time to read till the end..I said stop right!!! Lols...

2006-07-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

Oh GAWD!! I guess im soo full of emotions..Lols =X Well, well, well, i really miss him but the thing is it hurts if i continue talking to him and acted like before..There is no point to be sooo "manja" with him if in the end i did not gain anything..Only pain!! Arghh..!

Hahax..so randomly i start talking about it..Anyway, in INMM Lab class now..Poor Mr Woobs..He is explaining and not all of us are paying attention to him (including me) -_-..heex.. but im doing my project..See....So yar..Today got a hug from my darling because i wanted her hug and comfort soo much and she gave me good advice!! Thank U Green Chan..Dont worry..I wont talk to him because i want him to do some soul searching and if he still talks to me, then....erm..be quiet? I want to see how he feels if i keep acting that way then suddenly, he cannot control so he needs to talk to me so badly because he miss me..HooHoo..=3 Okay, im talking stuff that will never happen.So what.Its not as if he care or he will miss me right? I can only wish that he will but after hearing it, nah..I lose all my hopes on him..Maybe someday, maybe, just maybe he will realise it but now, i can only suffer silently..*Tsk Tsk*

**Wish_.*

I gave all my hopes and dreams to U

Because I thought we can share them together

When i heard the BAD news, not only my dreams

and hopes were shattered, i WAS too

I could not find light within U

Only darkness surround me

Who can save me from this darkness

As i thought only U could

I just hope U find YOUR TRUE feelings soon

But if it is not meant for me

Let me drift away

That can only give happiness not only to ME

But to U too

However, i still pin my hopes on U because i want to be with U

Badly

Im Vulnerable, my shelter COULD only be U

Im Gullible, my saver Could only be U

Im Lost, my guide COULD only be U

Please THINK and Be My Valentine

2006-07-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

I dont have the mood to do anything today after what happened yesterday.I felt really terrible but one thing for sure that i know is i did not blame myself as i did not know know the real thing that is happening and i wasnt told. But im still doing my work.I guess its better to continue doing even though i tend to drift away at times.Thats me.I cant sit still without doing anything.Haix...

I guess it was meant to be this way.Everything.I felt sooo pathetic and really useless. I dont know why but i kept thinking about it because its not the first time but "first time" as in experiencing something soo sweet and cared for but it the end, it wasnt what i thought it to be. So all this while i was kind of in my own world.Guessing whether its really true or am i dreaming about it. Up till now, after i woke up, i could not forget the whole thing.I kept telling myself it was all a dream or simply put it wished it was a dream but after all its not.It was slammed to my face and the aftermath i received, i just could not handle it.

My emotions are really fragile but it seems as though it was not noticed and so my emotions were played around as though i was a toy, i did not exist. In the first place, just tell me what needs to be done so i will not fall deeper but nothing! NOTHING! HONTOU BETSUNI!!

Just felt like crying but why must i waste my tears on this kind of stuff. I mean its considered nothing right, especially to my mum because she doesnt like me to waste my time on BGR and wants me to put my concerntration on other areas that are more important, like education, but i could not control it. I just could not anymore. I have a lot to worry about. How can i not think about it? Im not a toy and i got feelings. Real feelings.

This looks like the end of the road to me.I cant do anything anymore except to feel sad and sulk..

2006-06-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

Here i am in the lab doing nothing..Lols..Elly and Widayu busy doing INMM..See lah, why dont want to save in thumbdrive so when got time in school can do..Stubborn right? CMSK lesson is only for half an hour so its pretty boring..
Sigh sigh..After that we went to the lab and yar, im practically doing nothing except go to shockwave.com to play games but that too is very boring so i decided to walk around and see elly's and widayu's work..hahas..very hardworking unlike me,Heh!
But but..got someone to accompany me,heex..He sat beside me but..he use his laptop to play games while im there watching it..hahax..but he still talk to me..soo sweet..half an hour later he left cuz he want to go eat lunch with his friends..
Ok..i dont know what to blog anymore..lols? *knock my head against the wall*
Im just so excited to see him again after 2 wks + the term test week so makes that 3 wks..So i miss him..hahax..
Then i find that he is more nicer to me..The way he talk very polite and of course it cannot make me forget about him already..so yar..lols...*im going mad* I need the IMH..

2006-06-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

I didnt realise i have come this far that i open up my heart to u..U realise it but im still unaware of my feelings for u..How big is it or how small is it, im not sure..

I just know that i like u and i fall for u ever since the way u look and laugh with me..I thought it was nothing but i could not hide it any longer..I have no control of my feelings anymore and the more i try to avoid u the more i will definely miss u..

I miss u already..Kept thinking about u today but actually i was thinking if i should avoid u when the time comes and that within these few weeks, will i be able to forget about u.That, im not sure either.I cant seem to make it right anymore when it concerns u..hahx..im still able to laugh..i guess i do like u a lot huh..u say u will make me notice u if i avoid u, but will it ever be possible between us?After what u told me, i kept thinking and wondered bout it..It will be so perfect but again, maybe ure not up for it..

Why i like u? i think compared to others, i feel that there is a chemistry between us..Do u feel it too? i dont know but its like the way u responds to me seems like it but when asked, u felt unsure about it.So which is the truth?Im confused myself..Nevertheless it makes me wana avoid u more..*Sigh..What shall i do to control my evolving emotions? I cant help thinking about u but what? what? what?

I think it will be enough time for me to take and go..Cuz ive experience it a lot of times and so this shall not be a problem..Ure scared im hurt if i do that but what do u wana do? im scared to ask u that..i dont have the rights, i dont want u to think im so into u that i could go insane.Im not like that..Im just like anybody else..Having these hard times..

Its all up to u..Perhaps i have to move on isnt it? let go of this feelings........as i may not know what will happen..

2006-06-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today, only went to school for 1 hour.Very freakingly waste my time.Can stay at home to study but its ok.Got to watch more of other grp's videos.Very fun.Lols...My stress level keeps rising due to the term test which is around the corner..What the?! Its only next week.. No time to relax and day dream anymore.. Better study harder.. Seems like this sem is a bit tough so less sleep and work more and of course less surfing..Couldnt help it..

Anyway, im pretty sad though cause i dont want to go to the venue for each term test alone...They all very bad..Want me to be independent..*PuncH* *KicK* the admin..=.= Dont blame me..You all make me do this so you have to take the blame wokay? =)

Narisya!! Lols..She is my life saver, my reminder, my "release all my stress and complaints"..Yar..hehex..I like to rant and blabber all nonsense stuff with her..Cuz she responds to it..if not ill go crazy doing it all alone..Sigh* Sigh*DotS...Lols..

Cant wait for term test to be over but still wants to achieve gd marks..Must pass all..Then next thursday, want to go out will all my Darlz..Go eat and celebrate because during term break also have to go back school to discuss project..Sianzz..

Better get back to my study-ING..if not will end up sleeping late and will be very tired..Miss U Green Chan!!